It’s been nearly a year since I’ve posted last. A lot has changed in my life, and I was just so incredibly busy living in the moment.
Today I just felt the need to write. This blog isn’t about how many readers I have. It just helps me to organize my thoughts sometimes. I love interacting with other bloggers I follow and I love when people interact with my posts!
I would love to start getting more involved on here again. Mainly because on my days off work I tend to just watch Netflix, which isn’t bad, but I want to do something else occasionally. I think this would be a good way to spend some of my free time.
I feel like my life has really changed this past year. I remember making a post about my breakup, but a few months later, around October I think, I found out that he had cheated on me while we were still together. While things were over (because I ended it), it didn’t bother me so much when he first told me, but I think as I’ve had plenty of time to sit on it, it does bother me a little.
What bothers me is the fact that I was struggling with the relationship for months. I told him what was wrong and how it could potentially get fixed. Nothing ever seemed to change. He was always upset when I brought up problems, like there wasn’t any. Learning all of a sudden that not only did he see problems, but that he liked someone else, and never communicated any of that to me was hard.
Getting back into dating seemed difficult, but I went for it anyway. Everything went much better than expected because I was finally figuring out who I was and what I needed.
I started dating my current boyfriend, and everything seemed to fall perfectly into place. Things are still going well! Amazing, even.
However, I just have some days where I think to myself that maybe something isn’t right and he’s just not telling me. I’ve talked to him about it before, and he assures me everything is fine. He knows my past probably about as well as I do. So, I trust him.
Sometimes, your thoughts just don’t always make perfect sense. That’s okay though. You’re just trying to protect yourself. It’s just important to not push people away because of it.
Overall, I’m doing really, really well. I’m just ready for a new chapter in my life 🙂